It’s been a while for me writing down my feelings and thoughts; I’ve been having trouble facing my feelings and thoughts in my own head much less typing them out. So with that excuse this post that may just be rambling but I am a rambler.
I have recently wondered what happened to my heart and who I am. To some I am too calloused and unopen and yet to others I am so sensitive that I come off as homosexual, confusing for me to say the least. What I have noticed is that when I put my heart out there it often gets sent back to me in a mangled state. I think that some where along the way I listened to way to many bad pop songs and saw a bevy of romantic movies that I whole heartedly believed that commercial garbage. I was told over and over God has a special lady just for you and to wait, be patient and guard my heart. And all too often I listened to both of those messages mixing them into a bastard child of inbred wishes and understanding of love.
I now take full responsibility for my incorrect thinking. I made myself this way and I have to undo my decades of miss-education. My life is not cinematic or even well-scripted in the best sense. I will never run to break up a wedding at the last moment stealing the bride and dashing away. I have no eloquent speeches to those women (hell I can barely write a decent blog). Life is just one hodgepodge of joy and broken hearts and I am learning to find contentment in the ride.
So all that to say, to my friends getting married this summer mozeltoff
That makes sense to me.
why am i a cartoon? i hate this cyberworld.
i am glad you are writing again. i have missed reading your blog.