worship of a broken heart

Tonight my heart has awoke, I’ve spent the evening at home worshiping by myself. I’ve just heard a song by John Mark McMillan and it won’t leave me. For the first time in a long I have a desire to worship and do something stupid like lift my hands!

For too long I have felt so cynical towards worship unable to commit or to see the point but the truth of it was that I felt unworthy to worship. In that I could not submit my heart. I felt dirty and ashamed of myself. I let my shit swallow me whole.

I am finally coming back to the understanding that Jesus Christ laid down death in its grave giving me not just eternal life but life for here and now. That is not contingent on me, my actions, or how I feel today or tomorrow. It’s eternal and overpowers all that I am and have been. I am fallen but I don’t have to live in that! Rejoice I say Rejoice I am redeemed!

Though the Earth Cried out for blood
Satisfied her hunger was
Her billows calmed on raging seas
for the souls on men she craved

Sun and moon from balcony
Turned their head in disbelief
Their precious Love would taste the sting
disfigured and disdained

On Friday a thief
On Sunday a King
Laid down in grief
But awoke with keys
Of Hell on that day
The first born of the slain
The Man Jesus Christ
Laid death in his grave

So three days in darkness slept
The Morning Sun of righteousness
But rose to shame the throes of death
And over turn his rule

Now daughters and the sons of men
Would pay not their dues again
The debt of blood they owed was rent
When the day rolled a new

On Friday a thief
On Sunday a King
Laid down in grief
But awoke holding keys
To Hell on that day
The first born of the slain
The Man Jesus Christ
Laid death in his grave

On Friday a thief
On Sunday a King
Laid down in grief
But awoke with keys
Of Hell on that day
The first born of the slain
The Man Jesus Christ
Laid death in his grave

He has cheated
Hell and seated
Us above the fall
In desperate places
He paid our wages
One time once and for all